Can it be?

I started freaking out a little last night when I realized that there’s only 31 days left of the year. The hands of time sure did move pretty quickly. At this rate, I’ll be 30 in no time. That’s a scary thought and I’m jumping way ahead of myself. Anyway, at least I’ll get my winter break from school soon. Happy December everybody!

P.S. I almost forgot, I wanted to let you know the vitamin project will officially be over in two days!!! It took a little longer than expected but it’ll finally be done. I should also let you know that I should revise the blog from September 25th to Forty-nine days instead of Fifty because I dropped one by accident during lunch one day. Oops.

Where's the mojo?

I’ve been on the exercise kick again. Well trying anyway. It’s been harder since I’ve been taking 2 classes this quarter.
With fall almost to an end and winter around the corner I need to focus on not adding any holiday pounds. Or as my dear friend likes to call it my baby layer and now he calls it my winter layer.

Why can’t he just say that I’m getting fat? Anyway, today I attempted to go for a run outside today. Running outside means hills, lots of hills which I detest but do them anyway. I do it for two reasons, it gets me out the the gym and the monotony of the treadmill and I heard it helps your butt.

Today I have discovered that I’ve lost it. My mojo or whatever it is I had when I was running. I don’t know what happened but all the progress I’ve made in the last year has disappeared. So it’s back to square one of trying to get back to the level I was once at. Ugh...this is what happens when you don’t keep up with things. I’m really scared to hop back on my bike. It’s been almost 2 months since I’ve ridden that thing. Better get on the ball, I need my running mojo back.

Oh am I?

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Wishful thinking

Sometimes I wish I could crawl into a cave and never come out. That way, I could avoid reality and live in my own lovely bubble. Now that I think about it, I might not pick a cave but you get the point.
It’s been a long week and I had a very disturbing dream the other night. It was so disturbing I haven’t talked to that person in a few days. But to think of it they haven’t tried to get a hold of me either so I don’t know what to say about that. Yikes, what a simple dream can do, I think my subconscious is trying to tell me something. Whether I do something about it or not is the question.

Vitamin update

Forty days have passed day after my first blog September 25th. Technically I should be done in 10 days. Instead, after counting my bottle of vitamins, I have 17 days to go. I’m only a week off, not too shabby if I do say so myself. I have to tell you that I don’t feel any different though. We’ll see if I keep pursuing vitamins after I’m done with the bottle.

Sad day

My aunt passed away today. This is so surreal. Although I'm sad for selfish reasons, I’m glad she’s not going through the pain anymore. I know she’s in a peaceful place now, wherever that may be.

Funeral’s on Monday since we have family flying in from out of the country. It’s gonna be a long week.

Guilt trip

I have my bags packed and ready to go. My mother is sending me on guilt trip for all the things I should have done regarding my aunt. Ugh, I can’t take it. It’s not as if I don’t think about what I could have done different in regards to my aunt.

I could have definitely visited more and I could have called more but I didn’t know that it would come this soon. The last thing I need is for my mother to be on my back. It’s gonna be a long trip so I’ll see you when I get back because I don’t know how long I’ll be gone. Typical Asian.

Apologies in advance

I’m sorry I haven’t been myself lately. I actually think I’ve been a little depressed lately because of the whole family situation going on. Sorry for the many tears that have been shed this past week. I know you have your own problems and you don’t need to deal with mine.

My mom gave me an update on Aunt Jia and things for her are not getting better. She had a seizure on Friday and we found out that the cancer has spread to her brain. She also asked me today if I had any articles of black clothing and told me to be prepared. I’m really scared for what’s going to happen. I know that she’ll be in a better place but the selfish side of me doesn’t want her to leave. For now I can only send positive thoughts her way, and if you have a free moment please send some her way too.