My aunt passed away today. This is so surreal. Although I'm sad for selfish reasons, I’m glad she’s not going through the pain anymore. I know she’s in a peaceful place now, wherever that may be.
Funeral’s on Monday since we have family flying in from out of the country. It’s gonna be a long week.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Monday, October 30, 2006
Guilt trip
I have my bags packed and ready to go. My mother is sending me on guilt trip for all the things I should have done regarding my aunt. Ugh, I can’t take it. It’s not as if I don’t think about what I could have done different in regards to my aunt.
I could have definitely visited more and I could have called more but I didn’t know that it would come this soon. The last thing I need is for my mother to be on my back. It’s gonna be a long trip so I’ll see you when I get back because I don’t know how long I’ll be gone. Typical Asian.
I could have definitely visited more and I could have called more but I didn’t know that it would come this soon. The last thing I need is for my mother to be on my back. It’s gonna be a long trip so I’ll see you when I get back because I don’t know how long I’ll be gone. Typical Asian.
Apologies in advance
I’m sorry I haven’t been myself lately. I actually think I’ve been a little depressed lately because of the whole family situation going on. Sorry for the many tears that have been shed this past week. I know you have your own problems and you don’t need to deal with mine.
My mom gave me an update on Aunt Jia and things for her are not getting better. She had a seizure on Friday and we found out that the cancer has spread to her brain. She also asked me today if I had any articles of black clothing and told me to be prepared. I’m really scared for what’s going to happen. I know that she’ll be in a better place but the selfish side of me doesn’t want her to leave. For now I can only send positive thoughts her way, and if you have a free moment please send some her way too.
My mom gave me an update on Aunt Jia and things for her are not getting better. She had a seizure on Friday and we found out that the cancer has spread to her brain. She also asked me today if I had any articles of black clothing and told me to be prepared. I’m really scared for what’s going to happen. I know that she’ll be in a better place but the selfish side of me doesn’t want her to leave. For now I can only send positive thoughts her way, and if you have a free moment please send some her way too.
Friday, October 27, 2006
Full speed ahead
I’m reaching the the half way mark of my semester and I feel very overwhelmed. Classes are getting harder, more work is ahead and concepts are all beginning to join together from day one. Where am I in the mix of this? Well, I’m a tad behind in both my classes to be honest, especially in my Autocad class. I feel like I’m super slow in producing any kind of plans and half the time they’re not accurate. I don’t feel like I’ve put in the effort and time that should have been put into these classes and I’m beginning to regret it. It’s not that I don’t enjoy the classes because I do.
I have another 6 weeks or so of class and I plan on getting through them with flying colors so if I’m a little grouchy in between just bare with me.
I have another 6 weeks or so of class and I plan on getting through them with flying colors so if I’m a little grouchy in between just bare with me.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Seriously, kill me now.
Someone help me! I just experienced the worse thing a sister could ever experience. But honestly, the way my week’s been going I’m not surprised that I got to sit through this jewel of an experience. This is totally icing on the cake and I must say I really hate my life at this moment.
I really don’t want to go into little details but I will tell you this; he’s recently acquired a girlfriend. They hang out a lot and it’s often over at our house.
Ok, so here goes. I was sitting in the room adjacent to my brother’s. I was surfing the net minding my own business. (I have to do this because our wireless router sucks royally and until we get that problem fixed I will continue to use that room.) I hear the t.v. on in my brother’s room and I hear him and his girlfriend chatting, and out of nowhere I hear a what I thought was a moan. I stopped typing for a second and listened closely but all I heard was the t.v. so I continued to check my email. Then 30 seconds later I hear what I knew was a MOAN. I can say that I’m totally grossed out right now. This also confirms that the first sound I heard was definitely a moan and this round it’s even louder. Then I hear my brother telling her to shush, it gets quiet for about 2 seconds and continues with some slapping noises.
That’s right guys, my little brother and his girlfriend were totally having sex in his room. How wrong is that? Honestly, his older sister hearing him having sex. Uhh...I can’t even finish this blog because I’m seriously sickened by what I just sat through. This is definitely my cue to back away from the computer and leave the room immediately. It’s not enough that I had a shitty week, it has to end like this. I really hope that this weekend has better things stored for me instead of what I’ve gone through this week. Thank god this week is almost over .
I really don’t want to go into little details but I will tell you this; he’s recently acquired a girlfriend. They hang out a lot and it’s often over at our house.
Ok, so here goes. I was sitting in the room adjacent to my brother’s. I was surfing the net minding my own business. (I have to do this because our wireless router sucks royally and until we get that problem fixed I will continue to use that room.) I hear the t.v. on in my brother’s room and I hear him and his girlfriend chatting, and out of nowhere I hear a what I thought was a moan. I stopped typing for a second and listened closely but all I heard was the t.v. so I continued to check my email. Then 30 seconds later I hear what I knew was a MOAN. I can say that I’m totally grossed out right now. This also confirms that the first sound I heard was definitely a moan and this round it’s even louder. Then I hear my brother telling her to shush, it gets quiet for about 2 seconds and continues with some slapping noises.
That’s right guys, my little brother and his girlfriend were totally having sex in his room. How wrong is that? Honestly, his older sister hearing him having sex. Uhh...I can’t even finish this blog because I’m seriously sickened by what I just sat through. This is definitely my cue to back away from the computer and leave the room immediately. It’s not enough that I had a shitty week, it has to end like this. I really hope that this weekend has better things stored for me instead of what I’ve gone through this week. Thank god this week is almost over .
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Honest Ivan
Ivan my long time trainer/friend can always be counted on to tell me the truth when it comes to the way that my body looks. Me being the paranoid girl I am, I always do a weekly check on how my body’s doing and he gives me an answer. If he gives me an answer I don’t like, I find a way to try to resolve it. He usually gives me tips on how to reach my goal which is really nice.
I started training with Ivan a year or two ago, and ever since then we’ve been buddies. The thing I love about this guy is that he’s honest. I can always expect a honest answer from him even if it might sting a little. He always said wouldn’t you rather have me tell the truth than lie? I rather him tell me the truth but, I have to admit, the truth sometimes hurts.
I think at least a year has pasted since I last trained with him. I still frequent the gym and every time I go I have to have my catch up session with him. I have to see how him and Gladice (his wife) are doing, if he’s been busy with clients etc etc and he does the same with me. How’s work, school, anything new with the boys? Blah blah blah. At the end of every conversation I ask him what I should work out for the day and last Thursday our conversation went a little something like this.
me: “ Ivan, I feel like going home, I don’t wanna work out.
Ivan: “Sid, you’re here already, you’re gonna work out.”
me: “Ivan”
Ivan: “Sid.”
me: “Uh, fine. What should I do today?”
Ivan: “You should do abs.”
me: “Ivan, what are you trying to say?”
Ivan: “ Sid, do I need to say anything?”
me: “Wow, that was a hint. (start to stick out my tummy even more) FINE.”
He smiles at me and walks away. I go and head for the blue mats to meet my fate of yucky sit-ups and other things to torture my body.
I started training with Ivan a year or two ago, and ever since then we’ve been buddies. The thing I love about this guy is that he’s honest. I can always expect a honest answer from him even if it might sting a little. He always said wouldn’t you rather have me tell the truth than lie? I rather him tell me the truth but, I have to admit, the truth sometimes hurts.
I think at least a year has pasted since I last trained with him. I still frequent the gym and every time I go I have to have my catch up session with him. I have to see how him and Gladice (his wife) are doing, if he’s been busy with clients etc etc and he does the same with me. How’s work, school, anything new with the boys? Blah blah blah. At the end of every conversation I ask him what I should work out for the day and last Thursday our conversation went a little something like this.
me: “ Ivan, I feel like going home, I don’t wanna work out.
Ivan: “Sid, you’re here already, you’re gonna work out.”
me: “Ivan”
Ivan: “Sid.”
me: “Uh, fine. What should I do today?”
Ivan: “You should do abs.”
me: “Ivan, what are you trying to say?”
Ivan: “ Sid, do I need to say anything?”
me: “Wow, that was a hint. (start to stick out my tummy even more) FINE.”
He smiles at me and walks away. I go and head for the blue mats to meet my fate of yucky sit-ups and other things to torture my body.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
An attempted update
It’s been a while since I written. Sorry to my so called “fan(s)” out there. (you know who you are and this blog is for you) I’ve been consumed by other areas in my life and put my writing on the back burner.
These past weeks have been filled with school, work and little exercise. This last thing I speak of saddens me. The lack of exercise depresses me. This lacking I speak of is partially due to my new schedule and did I mention my lack of motivation to exercise on my days off from school. In hindsight, it’s my own fault that I’ve been feeling this way. But honestly I can’t help it. This slipping away of Daylight savings is not helping. The night comes a lot sooner than it use to, and on some nights when I leave work, the sun has already done it’s job for the day and has gone home. I’ll get back on the exercise track, I have to, anyway moving on.
The weeks have been hectic since school started. There are not enough hours in the day. I especially feel this way at work on the days I have school. I figure it’s only another year or so of this and I’ll have another degree tucked under my belt so in the end it’ll be worth it. (I have to tell myself this or else I might quit the program.)
Other things that might be of interest...
- I rode my first 70 mile bike ride the first weekend in October. That was very “interesting” to say the least. Translation-I was very unprepared and my poor ass took a beating. Long story short, I had welts from the seat and it hurt really bad. It’s totally embarrassing but kinda funny at the same time so I don’t mind telling.
- I caught some nasty bug last Saturday but I think I’m almost better now. But my back has been bothering my a bit since the ride and it’s not getting better. I might have to get that checked out if it doesn’t go away soon.
- I went to a concert Sunday night at the Fonda. I had dinner at an Indian restaurant before the show. The food and company was really great. Oh,the show was good too. You’ll hear no complaints here.
Sadly, I think that’s it. I’m sorry I don’t have more of an exciting update. Not much has happened in the past few weeks. Although, I’ve been thinking a lot lately about friendships/relationships and how strange it is how things can change in a blink of an eye. But I won’t get started on that. I’ll have to gather my thoughts a little more before I start babbling about it.
TTFN and I’ll write soon. Promise.
These past weeks have been filled with school, work and little exercise. This last thing I speak of saddens me. The lack of exercise depresses me. This lacking I speak of is partially due to my new schedule and did I mention my lack of motivation to exercise on my days off from school. In hindsight, it’s my own fault that I’ve been feeling this way. But honestly I can’t help it. This slipping away of Daylight savings is not helping. The night comes a lot sooner than it use to, and on some nights when I leave work, the sun has already done it’s job for the day and has gone home. I’ll get back on the exercise track, I have to, anyway moving on.
The weeks have been hectic since school started. There are not enough hours in the day. I especially feel this way at work on the days I have school. I figure it’s only another year or so of this and I’ll have another degree tucked under my belt so in the end it’ll be worth it. (I have to tell myself this or else I might quit the program.)
Other things that might be of interest...
- I rode my first 70 mile bike ride the first weekend in October. That was very “interesting” to say the least. Translation-I was very unprepared and my poor ass took a beating. Long story short, I had welts from the seat and it hurt really bad. It’s totally embarrassing but kinda funny at the same time so I don’t mind telling.
- I caught some nasty bug last Saturday but I think I’m almost better now. But my back has been bothering my a bit since the ride and it’s not getting better. I might have to get that checked out if it doesn’t go away soon.
- I went to a concert Sunday night at the Fonda. I had dinner at an Indian restaurant before the show. The food and company was really great. Oh,the show was good too. You’ll hear no complaints here.
Sadly, I think that’s it. I’m sorry I don’t have more of an exciting update. Not much has happened in the past few weeks. Although, I’ve been thinking a lot lately about friendships/relationships and how strange it is how things can change in a blink of an eye. But I won’t get started on that. I’ll have to gather my thoughts a little more before I start babbling about it.
TTFN and I’ll write soon. Promise.
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